So on the 21st of September last year I made a phone call I was not prepared to make because I was not ready to let go. I called my family home because the doctors had told us that my Mom had about 2 weeks to live. And a whole lot has happened since then, including NotMyFarm.
I realized after Mom's passing that I really needed to change things. As the old saying goes, life is short and I really think I have let most of it pass me by. So I needed to find my passion and pursue it. I love and admire my children so much because in my mind they did just that and did it at an early age. My son was in college and decided to move back home. After a couple of months I asked him what he loved most to do and the answer was welding. In a family full of college degrees and advanced education, he received his welding certificate from a local technical college and has done great. Yes, his work is still a job, but he pursued his passion. He didn't worry about how he was going to pay the bills but he has done well for himself. My daughter graduated from medical college and is in her residency. She decided while in undergraduate school that medicine was where she needed to be. She understood the debt she would incur while following her dream. But she followed her passion and calling knowing that was part of the price to pay.
After losing Mom, I had to ask myself why I wasn't following the same advice I had always given my kids. Why was I still living my life to please others? So I have started making changes and growing. I have started pushing outside my comfort zone, the only place to learn and grow, and moving on. I have acquired some of the most wonderful women friends one of whom, by introducing me to natural horsemanship, has changed my life immensely. Horsemanship has taught me humanship and I hope it is making me a kinder, softer, more understanding person. I started NotMyFarm at the urging of a dear friend. It is slowly growing and I am getting more referrals, so hopefully it will overwhelm me next year. And I love it. I love that others place that much trust in me to take care of their dream and entrust me with their beloved pets. It is humbling. I love to look after the animals. I even love having to get up extra early just so I have the time to get the chores done and then go to work. I enjoy the peace of the farm.
I had a personal health scare recently that just reinforced the idea that I had to do my own thing. So after my boss gets back from his extended vacation in Mexico, I am going to work part-time at my day job. I want the time to pursue NotMyFarm and my equine assisted psychotherapy and learning programs (thinking of calling it Horse of My Heart). Horses have made such a difference in my life, I want to share that with others.
There have been so many signs in the last year and so many changes. Two more of the significant ones are letting a cat adopt me and Jenks (I an not really a cat person but Pippin has become part of the family) and putting my house up for sale. I want more horse and farm experience and hope to find a place that will give me that experience.
So after a year, though I am still not ready to let go, I am learning to. I miss my Mom a lot. She was not only my Mom but a dear friend and I am not sure that I did not fail her in the end but I love her and always will. And I know in my heart of hearts she knew that. I am learning that the Universe will provide if you trust enough to let it. I am learning about friendship and what it really is and how to be one. I am also finding my truth again.
So go out and find your passion, follow your dreams and trust that whatever deity you believe in, will provide for you and yours.
I realized after Mom's passing that I really needed to change things. As the old saying goes, life is short and I really think I have let most of it pass me by. So I needed to find my passion and pursue it. I love and admire my children so much because in my mind they did just that and did it at an early age. My son was in college and decided to move back home. After a couple of months I asked him what he loved most to do and the answer was welding. In a family full of college degrees and advanced education, he received his welding certificate from a local technical college and has done great. Yes, his work is still a job, but he pursued his passion. He didn't worry about how he was going to pay the bills but he has done well for himself. My daughter graduated from medical college and is in her residency. She decided while in undergraduate school that medicine was where she needed to be. She understood the debt she would incur while following her dream. But she followed her passion and calling knowing that was part of the price to pay.
After losing Mom, I had to ask myself why I wasn't following the same advice I had always given my kids. Why was I still living my life to please others? So I have started making changes and growing. I have started pushing outside my comfort zone, the only place to learn and grow, and moving on. I have acquired some of the most wonderful women friends one of whom, by introducing me to natural horsemanship, has changed my life immensely. Horsemanship has taught me humanship and I hope it is making me a kinder, softer, more understanding person. I started NotMyFarm at the urging of a dear friend. It is slowly growing and I am getting more referrals, so hopefully it will overwhelm me next year. And I love it. I love that others place that much trust in me to take care of their dream and entrust me with their beloved pets. It is humbling. I love to look after the animals. I even love having to get up extra early just so I have the time to get the chores done and then go to work. I enjoy the peace of the farm.
I had a personal health scare recently that just reinforced the idea that I had to do my own thing. So after my boss gets back from his extended vacation in Mexico, I am going to work part-time at my day job. I want the time to pursue NotMyFarm and my equine assisted psychotherapy and learning programs (thinking of calling it Horse of My Heart). Horses have made such a difference in my life, I want to share that with others.
There have been so many signs in the last year and so many changes. Two more of the significant ones are letting a cat adopt me and Jenks (I an not really a cat person but Pippin has become part of the family) and putting my house up for sale. I want more horse and farm experience and hope to find a place that will give me that experience.
So after a year, though I am still not ready to let go, I am learning to. I miss my Mom a lot. She was not only my Mom but a dear friend and I am not sure that I did not fail her in the end but I love her and always will. And I know in my heart of hearts she knew that. I am learning that the Universe will provide if you trust enough to let it. I am learning about friendship and what it really is and how to be one. I am also finding my truth again.
So go out and find your passion, follow your dreams and trust that whatever deity you believe in, will provide for you and yours.
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